Monday, May 4, 2009

Next Time

Several times today, I've heard or been told to do something different "next time."  Its a decent philosophy to follow for things like free throws and chinese food, but it doesn't really apply to things that matter.  As much as I want one, I won't get a second chance at high school.  I won't be able to change my past, even though I have in my mind exactly everything I would have done differently.  I can't change the words I've said and regretted saying, I can't change the friendships I've messed up, I can't allocate the past seventeen and a half years of my life differently, and I sure can't change the addictive decisions I've made in the past.  Why do they say "next time" when the last has already come?

1 comment:

Aaron Martin said...

Sehr poetisch.

College is that second try.

BTW, where are you going?

High school is fun and valuable, but becomes nothing more than nostalgia later (As I am sure college will).

At least in college you are working towards a more concretized future.