Light

I feel that I am at a crossroads in my life. As with most things, I view the future with a positive light, but I'm not too sure that that perspective is justified. I don't mean to imply that I don't see that life is worth living or anything, but I intend to lower my expectations slightly. Firstly, with my summers being devoted to important things, I'll have about 6 or so weeks off during the year before I get a full-time and perhaps fewer than that starting out my professional career. Living the 5-day week life has been sustainable for now, but I don't know how long that will last, particularly because of how college life is structured differently than the job-going life.

I don't know why I'm even typing. Nobody will read this and I don't even feel I'm going anywhere. Ok.

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So I suppose it is evident by now that this blog has an audience of one, and that is me. Its creation was purposeless and it seems that all I'll use it for now my pointless pansy ramblings to myself sprinkled with the occasional depressed shit, all the while being pretentious as fuck.

Today I changed how I felt about a person. I always thought this person was kind at heart and worthy of my trust, but today I decided otherwise. This person felt like going behind my back and telling stories about how lame I am to people that I live near but haven't met yet, so that knocks out any potential friendships with them based on their biased first impressions of me. It is inevitable that somebody talks down to me behind my back but kindly to me, but I perhaps would be happier with myself if I wasn't aware of it. I mean really, if you're going to talk shit about me to the guy in the dorm right next to me while my door's open, shut his door first. Should you decide to be a bitch, at least be a slightly competent one and hide it from your victim.