Cycles

For years now, I've been passing through cycles of self-confidence and self-pity.  I reminisce on my past more than I should and I seem to have some distorted perception of my own self that makes md blind to all of my successes and only look back on my failures.  I can tell myself that if I would have done things differently, I would turn out better.  I can point to hundreds of decisions I've made in the past four years that I wish I didn't.  But then again, who can't?  I've done things with my life so far than millions of other people never could, and likewise, millions of other people will always be ahead of me in some game of life.  I figure its about time to accept that I'll always be above the bottom and below the top.